Monday, January 30, 2012
So Sem 3 started, kicked off with a sizzle (let's just hope it ends with a bang). I'm currently in week 4, and I think so far, things are going pretty well. (Maybe that's because Quizes haven't started yet.) But it's my last semester, and as it has always been the rules of the universe, I learn from the less remarkable outcomes of the first 2 semesters, what not to do and what to do to avoid doing it. My results weren't that good. I'm honestly quite disappointed with myself. Sometimes people ask, what went wrong? And I really have no answer to that. I mean, I can create excuses, which apparently might be reasons, but I can't fully blame them. I'm actually to blame, for not being able to dodge those excuses, so in the end, the reason for it to happen, was just because.
I'm not saying I'm letting it slide. I'm not going to stop with just barely getting by. I want to achieve something, and right now I feel like on the brink of failing life, I suck at a lot of things, the least that I want is to accomplish something, and I've always thought I'm good in learning and remembering, so if I can't even do that right, then there will be nothing except pathetic-ness generating in my system.
Ummi & Abah didn't actually say I was bad, but they didn't compliment me in anything in particular either- not that I expected them to, my accomplishment is nearly to nothing, so it's quite fair for them to mock me if they may, but they didn't. They just voiced out their curiosity of my not-so-god performance. In the words of Ummi,
"Your CGPA isn't low, it's just lower than we expected from you, because we know that you could do better."So enough of that, moving on to current non-study-related affairs. In conjunction with IT net, (which is actually just Rafest) Intech_ss held a photoshoot booth, and I had the opportunity to be one of the photographers contributing to this effort. It was loads of fun, really. More fun than I expected it to be, taking pictures of happy people who happen to be with the people that make them happy, and are...well.. generally happy, is a very fun job to do. You know, like they want to freeze a moment that they want to keep in their pockets or stick on their locker, and they try really hard to make that moment perfect, and through the magical lens of a camera, I was able to see the spark in their eyes while they're giggling and making jokes,awkward stances, sincere laughs, I could see...genuine happiness, and it felt so magical. Not to mention, everyone's having a good time, enjoying themselves, the 6 of us having something common to do aside from studying, and I really liked it.
Starting book-reading this year on a high note, Shah bought this really cool book, it's called 'Are you smart enough to work at google?' and it's really a good read, especially if you're trying to find something challenging your perspective of logic and creativity, I already finished it, and it really opens your mind at how narrow our scope in both that sectors can be. How diverse the explanation and algorithm of each puzzles, it's really mind boggling, everybody should read it. I bought 'We need to talk about Kelvin' which is also a very logical yet very well-explained book about Physics, specifically the universe(although that doesn't specify anything), I'm halfway through and I gotta say, Science can be really easy to understand without the approach of formal government text books. Rewarded myself with one of Ned Vizzini's 'Teen Angst...nah', if you didn't notice, Ned Vizzini is the same author who wrote 'It's kind of a funny thing' which was totally awesome, and I didn't even hesitate to buy the book, I just did. I knew I'd finish it right away, so I gave Azwa to read it first since she was interested in the book (and I have to get my head in other stuff). Last but not least, I spotted Submarine in Borders last week, just haven't went to buy it yet. Hopefully this week...or maybe the next, but I would definitely buy Submarine (given that there's still stock left)
The movies I've started watching this year is an entirely epic list I don't think I'll stop if I talk about all of them, but the most significant of them all would definitely be The History Boys. I'm quite surprised how I've never heard of this movie before when it's a giant mass of awesome and wit. Not to mention it's a british movie with the perfect british accent (including scottish and Irish). I think one of the things that makes History boys stand out from other high school oriented movies is how diverse the students in the class were, and how each had their own significant character, like all multicultures in Britain, there's always the negro, the red head Scottish, the cool Irish, the popular espania haired dude, the geeky chatterbox, the fat guy, the indian muslim and of course, the dull one. But given it's the class for the smartypants, the dull one isn't even that dull, he's just the dullest of the lot.
I like the two contradicting teachers with their different methods of teaching, it's like Dead Poets Society finally met Jeff Winger- less Carpe Diem, more altering the truth, the whole teaching process is marvelously done. The literature in it was well played, recited and included. The dialogue, oh the dialogue, the witty dialogues that I might not ever get tired of listening to:Their reasonings, their debate, their opinions, their effort in altering the perception towards history itself- everything was pure genius. The ending was a bit uncalled for though I thought it would end at the end of the day, but it had to end at the end of their lives. I thought it was a prediction of the future, but the more I see it, it's more likely to be the future reminiscing the past. A great watch, a seriously great watch, I've been bugging Shah for weeks to watch this movie (and she's been bugging me to watch Fight Club), but seriously, everyone should be exposed to that much of awesomeness.
“The best moments in reading are when you come across something – a thought, a feeling,a way of looking at things – which you had thought special and particular to you. Now you have it, set down by someone else, a person you have never met, someone who is longdead. And it is as if a hand has come out and taken yours.”
Una's at Mesir right now, probably eating some kebab Qeelah kept talking about, or wearing one of those carpets Qeelah always bragged about, either way she's there, with her, breathing the same air most probably, and that meant, I had access to Fatihah. If you haven't noticed, I've mentioned her quite a number of time in my blogs, (sometimes with the nickname Freya, she goes by both.) and well, she's a really dear friend of mine. Sometimes we talk for hours(okay, probably an exaggeration) but I have grown an immense fondness towards her, not in 'that' way though, I can never take her away from Ain Archie, insted, in that non-serious-lesbo kind of way. And I knew Psychic Evacuation would fascinate her, so I gave her my Flip book, which is kind of worn out tbh, but it's the story that counts. Have been trying to skype with my two sisters for a while now, but none of them ever have the decency to sign in skype, so what to do with the girl stuck in Malaysia, between quizes on tomorrow, and tutorials due 5 minutes ago (yikes). And btw, Fatihah sent me a thank you message, and she addressed my sister with a nickname I am so grossed out by, I would not stain my blog with it. I don't know why my sister uses that nickname, but apparently everyone calls her that, and everytime I hear anyone calling her out using that name I try really, rea~ly hard not to puke. It's just so embarrassing, and I refuse to act as if I'm okay with it, because I'm not. it bugs me tremendously. Just saying.
Last but not least, the DSLR Worshop is on, and insyaAllah it will run smoothly on March.
