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One of the subjects I'm taking this semester is Accounting, which is quite baffling because why would an ICT student ever want to do .... accounting? Not financial management— but accounting all the stockholders' equity and liabilities and trial balancing debit credit, and adjusting accrual revenues and credit unearned service revenue and depreciating buildings and journalizing and ledgering and everything's just so foreign to me, that it kind of hurts. The main reason why I took ICT in the first place was because a) I like codes, b) No Biology, and c) No Accounting which apparently I have to cancel out because it's a Kulliyah required course. But the thing is, it's not just the subject per se that I'm having a problem with, the whole environment of the kulliyah is quite overwhelming.

I mean, going to classes is very important to me. Skipping classes is not much of a problem, it's being punctual that is. My record of being late is an hour and a half (but that was the end of semester so, doesn't count), I'm usually 20 minutes late, on bad days 40 minutes, and not to give a bad impression to people about my Kulliyah, but ICTzens are generally always late. If you think I'm always late, I rarely am the latest to arrive. Occasionally other people come after me, and it's almost normal to have the class start 10 minutes late and still have people coming in during lecture. I guess what I'm trying to say is, we're more relaxed people. What I like about my ICT classes, is that there are no pressure, and so the learning process is purely based on genuine interest & passion.  

So when suddenly, we're in the midst of everyone being 10 minutes early, it's hard not to look like a delinquent. It doesn't help that ICT is the only Kulliyah that obligates Accounting for their students (aside from those in Econs, obviously). Which makes the class unevenly divided to a majority, consisting of Economy students  who pretty much understands, learnt and breathed Accounting before, and the minority, consisting of ICT students, who are entirely clueless. And everyone's just so obedient, doing homework and asking questions and participating in class which makes us look awfully unrounded unorthodoxed human beings.

I know, I'm supposed to study, to make an effort in learning things that I don't know, and that's the exact reason why I'm (a bit) monumentally pissed off. I don't have passion in this field. When I took SPM, I struggled for Teras. If I were to selfishly pursue only the subjects I liked, I probably could've mastered Add maths, Physics and Chemistry. But being bad at teras subjects, meant I needed to unevenly divide more attention to them compared to the subjects that I like more, which resulted the downfall of it. I got all A+ for teras (including Add maths and excluding BM), A- for chemistry and B for Physics. It was kind of devastating, but I thought that sacrifice would stop there. I'm entering University, I can choose what I want to learn now, but apparently no. The sad truth is, irrelevance will always be unreluctantly relevant made by some people who probably thought it was okay.

I just wish I can have all ICT subjects for once. I should've taken System Analysis and Design rather than Accounting for this semester. But Computer Organization and Architecture is so hard I wonder which one should I devote myself to first.

All in all, I want my classes in KICT, I don't like being the black sheep of another kulliyah, being outcasted and looked down upon ("ICT students usually fail my class!"), I want less comprehensive income, more public class static void main(String[ ] args){ }. I want less accrual expenses, more Scanner sedut = new Scanner(System.in). I want less ledgers and journals, and more sedut.nextLine(); cause

 

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